As an adult, I thought I would have it all figured out in my 30's, but I then came to realize that I did not know that much about myself. I spent most of my 20's trying to craft a career and an identity that I felt ok with. I had nice clothes, cool friends, and felt successful at my job. I had a few college degrees, and strong work experience that allowed me to have the job of my choice. I felt like I was in great shape, and ate healthy too. Everything from the outside, seemed to be perfect. People would perceive me as being a go-getter, smart, funny, and a hard worker. Often times, I was a complete perfectionist at everything I did. But, from the inside I felt nothing. I felt no fulfillment and no excitement for life. On the outside I was thriving, but on the inside I felt like I was failing. I felt lost. I thought I had done all the right things to be my best self, but I was dead wrong. My mind was telling my that there was much more to life than what I was doing. I felt like I had no purpose besides making money and looking good. I had great vacations, nice clothes, and whatever I wanted.. but I felt tired and extremely bored. It was exhausting trying to be perfect and tiring trying to keep up with my identity. I knew that I had to make a change, but was not sure what that meant.
So, I began searching. I wanted to know what was I really suppose to be doing. What can bring me more satisfaction in life and make me feel alive? I started to find myself by reading books to learn about myself and my purpose, begin a workshop on finding my passion, started observing people who were living out their passions, made a list of the thing in life I loved and hated, and began to piece all that information together. As I began to piece that information together, I found my answer. I realized that I had ignored not only myself, but my natural abilities. I had developed both a career and life that was not truly me. The things I loved and wanted to explore were not occurring in my life at all. I was disconnected from myself, and in turn could not find my purpose. In finding myself through self discovery and research, I found my purpose. I was able to understand what I love and what my life means. The experiences we have in life become our purpose. Our purpose comes in finding out what our life truly means to us and how we can share the lessons we have learned with others. Our biggest struggles, failures and things we have overcame are what make us and what will bind us to other people. We as people must first understand who we are, to understand what our purpose is. So ask yourself who am I? Who am a without my identity (mom, husband, doctor, teacher, lawyer)? We are not our identity, but instead we are traits of a person(our essence) with several life experiences as well. So start by looking for yourself (read, take classes, make new connections, and try new things). Look for yourself, and find the things that make you feel alive. And
once you find what makes you feel alive, the reason for why you are here will shortly follow. All you have to do is start, and allow you heart filled happiness show you the way.
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